Thursday, March 27, 2008
posting this while still having in mind that today is wednesday. was tlkaing to nat for over and hour just now. im glad she can confide in me and that she finds a sense of security in me but personally, i dont think im the right person to go to. i have absolutely no experience in how to deal with her troubles. i guess she just needs a listening ear..
been talking to a lot of people lately. about five minutes ago alvin gave up guessing what show i was watching. its enchanted by the way... xD marianne's watching the chinese version of hanakimi just because she wants the wu zun eye candy.. -.-
just realised bunnymunch has yet to change its template. feel a bit bad because theyre so busy and i cant help because i dunno how to find nice skins...
megan's still teasing me about mt. i think we're drifting further apart. i dont want to be mean but i think its because of her bf. and yes. i am jealous. she dedicates so much time to him she doesnt even have enough time for school work. and i cant even see her in school because im not in her school leaving me practically zilch time to catch up or even have a proper msn convo.
ive also been talking to bessie. first it was just to tell her that the ijbear still isnt in stock so we cant go yet. its been almost a month by the way. damn long. francesca suggests we go during founders day. should have by then. they better have. by then itd be approximately 3 months.
the topic then turned to mt because she just had to mention seeing him with megan today. according to megan bessie's reaction was "mt! mt mt mt!!" hope she didnt say it too loud. it'll be hard to change code name for him after 2 years..
anyways so i said i want to forget my feelings for him. infact, im not even sure if theyre feelings or just the want to know him better. im so confused.. and i also said that itd be hard to let go because its been so long to which she agreed and said id probably find someone when i start poly and by then i should have a distraction meaning workload and social life in school. i agree but im not too interested in being connected to anyone in school. plus first criteria is the guy must be catholic and of course that he is a guy by natural birth. in the end bessie just says she hopes i find someone new. i want to say yes, i hope so too but a strong part of me is refusing to let go.
so, help me God, please, just let mt walk up to me one day, somewhere, somehow, whenever, look me in the eye, take a deep breath, and let me know exactly what he thinks of me. in Jesus' name I pray. Amen.
Posted by Ce at 12:25 am